still there

i can't believe that exam is over. it just can't seems to sink into my head that my 1st trimester is finally over and i am 1 more trimester closer to graduation. i am so looking forward to that even though i am sure i will definitely miss the life i have now. all the laughter, the pain, the people i met along the way, the sweet memories that i treasured o so dearly... but, people can't stay young forever. the clock is ticking. so, i just gotta pick myself up, stand up with my head held high, and keep going forward, taking life one step at a time, and hold every dear moment and every second that i have left in my hands.

sometimes life just got you thinking, what really happened that got you into this present situation? why did i have to react in that way? why can't i just be like Him? why is there always something wrong or missing?

i believe that i will make it through. a little faith and lots of work will do the trick i guess. i believe that my friends and my family will support me through all and that one day, you too, will understand why i had to do this and will love me despite of it.

even though it has been 2 months, i still could not believe the attention i had since i had it. wow, people that never speak to me or ask me out suddenly were so friendly to me. what do you want from me? call me paranoid, call me silly. even any tom, dick or harry will know that you had a ulterior motive.

maybe acting silly once in a while will do good. by then, i will have to learn to pick up the pieces and continue my journey despite the conditions and situations present around me. it's a hard core thing to commit myself into. i don't know whether i can achieve it or not, but i hope i do. i'm just lacking the kind of encouragement that i needed. it's not a want, but a need.

i'm just scared that, i'm still there. still stuck. there.

p/s: anyone who read this post, please don't ask me what i'm talking about. i just need my space to express myself and please let me do it without any questions. thank you.